The Coffee Shop Musings - Part 1

Originally Posted January 4, 2005.

I listen to Modest Mouse

And benefit from the mistakes of cute girls

And Contemplate

Was that a screw-up

Or is there meaning in this coffee?

I requested Love Song

Because I wish to feel whole again.

The place is full of unfamiliar faces tonight,

Everywhere but behind the counter

Where a smile and a chat cost me a buck forty

The dregs of any tea; leaves and honey.

I could do my schoolwork

Or eat chocolate cheese cake alone

Like the guy in the corner

But there are too many distractions

And I dont like chocolate.

Did she just smile at me

Or am I seeing things?

I wish I was hot like she is.

I wish I was hott!

Note to self:

Block out thoughts that forsake discretion

But discretion is over-rated and truth fucking hurts

Last time was a failure

"I need a break from boys"

Then I see you later

And you're attached again.

Stop looking at me

Out of the corner of your eye

With those boy catchers on.

Playing footsie with four feet of air in-between...

between you and I.

The stories say that there is a perfect person for each person

So where is the perfect one for me?

All the perfect girls are taken

But they can still be my friends

And all those girls are my friends

They are all my friends.

Sure I love you, but just not in that way.

Dont take these movements so seriously

These words may hurt you, but its better this way

Just know that I love you,

Know that I love you,

Know that I love you,

But not in that way.